I was that kind of person

I am that kind of person who care too much. Care too much about my friends. Begging so much for a friendship to maintain. Eventhough i'm the one who get hurt. I 'chase' friends so they'd stay. 

I was that kind of person.

My early 17. Ive started learning to love my friends, and myself. Friends stay when they want to stay. You practice being honest, loyal and positive. Forgive and ask forgiveness. Appreciate. Do your best. But if you still have to beg for them to stay. Save yourself. 

Thinking/caring for others is a good thing. But if it makes you miserable more than being at peace or if it makes yourself be more negative than positive. Don't be afraid to walk away. You don't have to hate anybody, but you can always choose with whom you wanna be close to.

Ada kawan yang kau boleh terus kawan tapi tak boleh rapat sebab buat your life miserable. It's okay. Forgive people. Sebab kita pun taktahu kot kita pun not being good enough. But you deserve to walk away from orang yang kau sayang gile anggap sahabat tapi they treat you bad. 

Tak mati tak kawan dengan orang yang asyik nak jatuhkan kita. Sakit jatuh kita buat taktahu walaupun tahu. Fikir hidup kita cuma ada masa untuk dia. Tak mati. Through that experience, baiki diri kita untuk jadi a better friend.

Bab kawan ni pun don't expect too much. Kita yang kena jadi a good friend dulu. Nanti lama lama especially the older you get, kau akan sedar kawan yang kau ada adalah yang walaupun dedua busy, masing-masing memahami. Kisah pasal kau walaupun lama tak jumpa. Sekali jumpa tetap selesa. 

Friends can be like your family and family can be your forever friends. I pray that all of us can be a good friend and have good friends around us. 

Jangan dendam. Just because that friend pernah busy / tak available (siap dah minta maaf) untuk our special day. Kita berkira. Ajar ikhlaskan diri, kalau kita mampu dan ada masa, luangkan, walau sikit. Berbaloi.

Kita pun jadi kawan yang baik. Try to think good of other people. Appreciate little things. Even just a text. Bila belajar syukur untuk sekecil benda, we'll be happier. 

Kadang-kadang yang baik dan setia bukan pada tempoh perkenalan. Tapi pada positiviti yang hidup dalam persahabatan. Ingat, jangan rasa terhutang pada "tapi dah kawan lama".

Communication. Once in a while tanye khabar tak semestinya hari-hari. Tak puas hati, cakap depan. Bukan fitnah belakang.

Idk, the thing is. Teach yourself not to expect too much. Don't feel bad to care for someone and to walk away from someone negative. Shift priorities, don't get busy searching for a good friend, focus on being one.

Sometimes, we thought we don't have any good friends. While the truth is, good friends are around you. But you focus too much on pleasing others: seeking and chasing their attention. 

Aku perasan ianya seperti norma. Yang betul menghargai, kita layan acuh tak acuh, yang layan kita kejapnya elok kejap tidak pula yang kita terkejar-kejar sampai hati sendiri kecewa.

"The minute you step away from negative people in your life you will instantly see the beauty in your horizon." -Will Smith, 

"Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you and treat you bad. Let god deal with the things they do, cause hate in your heart will consume too." -Will Smith,

"One of the most beautiful qualities of the true friendship is to understand and to be understood." -Lucius Seneca, 

thank you peeps for reading this, hope you find new inspire from this. 

Xoxo, Nisa.